i dont know whether i should go to xanga.com or stay here at blogdrive. i am definitely not making a myspace cause eveyone has one. im soooo confused!!! lol. help me out

well, my blog is officially dead. maybe i'll have a ceramonie. i was dreading this day since ... well, since now. oh well, my life is interesting enough to write about. let's recount everything that has every happened since ... hmmm, january! ok, here is go.

1. love life - non existant since hmmm ... 8 MONTHS AGO! yes, frenchy pie is destined to die alone. that is my soul purpose in life.
2. drama - im frenchy in our production Grease. it's coming out quite delightful. April 8,9 and 15,16. to everyone who takes time to read this bull crap.
3. school - sucks.
4. friendship - have about 2 close friends and 30 good friends and a couple of poeopel who are best 6 feet under ground.
5. future - doesnt look like i have one.

now thats my life. would you liek to help? lol. this is my life ....

 

shit.

i went to a show at my school yesterday. it was awesome. all the bands were great except for the first band. they weren't very good. still gotta give em props for having the courage to go up there and suck in front of 100 people. i'm so SORE from jumping all over the place last night but it was well worth the pain. crowd surfing, mosh pits, hot bassists = ].... what's better that on a friday night? NOTHING! oh man. i got soooo much homework to do, so much money i don't have to spend and so much on my mind that doesn't pertain to that. i'm gonna go insane. well, i'm out.  

well, my grandpa fred died yesterday. Decmber 8, 2004. the whole family is torn apart. this really really sucks. the skin under my grandma's eyes turned purple from crying sooooo much. we were the only family my grandpa had. his daughter died in september and his son never visits. my mom says i can't go to school 'til monday and i'm gonna miss 2 drama practices. oh well, i need to be with my family. i got the part of frenchy in the drama show we are doing [ grease ] and i sang my solo the day he died. me and my cousin gio were the grandchildren my grandpa saw last. we saw him an hour before he died. he was hooked up to an oxygen tank but he didn't want to wear it so he took it off. he got tired so we left and he went to sleep. he was lying in bed with my g.ma and he was complaining to her cause he was in pain. she told him to get comfortable so he did and then when she woke up he was cold as ice. my grandma said he looked like he was still sleeping. my mom was supposed to go watch him while my g.ma was supposed to go to the hospital to get some tests done. i feel so bad for my g.ma because this has happened to her 3 times already. her fiance died from an unknown blodd clot in his brain, my real grandpa, john fragale, died from lung cancer and now my grandpa fred died of cancer in his lungs and bones and i think he had cancer in his spinal cord too. it was spreading. i think he knew he was gonna die so he wanted to go home. he wasn't suppoed to go home from the hospital that night. he wanted to die at home next to my grandma. idk. i miss him. the whole family does. tonight at 7 is his wake and saturday we bury him with his first wife. ig2g get ready to go back to grandma's. i slept there with my cousin amanda. keep her company.

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omg! auditions were so stressful! on mon. we sang. i don't know how that went. on tues. we acted and i think i did pretty good. i was really confident about that. on wed. we danced. it hurt cause i've been working out in gym class so i was getting sore lol. on thurs. we had call backs. I HATE CALL BACKS!!! we had to recite all these lines from different scenes and we switched around parts. it was really weird. i had to pretend to be in love with chris viso, pretend to smoke with actual cigarettes and i had to scream out curse words lol [ son of a bitch! ]. it was great but really scary. yesterday was the only day this week i didn't have drama. i got to relax but i was soooo tired!!! i came home and tried to nap but i was too tired to sleep. don't ask me why, i'm just weird. last night we had the tree lighting ceremony. i sang with the lhs choir and it was really good. we were awesome. after that nicole came over and we hung out. after she left i fell asleep, finally. dom called me at 11:10 but i was asleep. oh well, he'll call again <3. i g2g get ready to go to the mall with my mom. i'll write later ... maybe

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i haven't blogged in a while. nothing new has been happening. same old shit, different day and sometimes the same person / people. thanksgiving has just passed and it sucked. i threw up all day cause i am allergic to cold cuts. how weird is that!? lol. we have auditions for drama soon. i'm so nervouse. i'm trying out for rizzo and jan [ we are doing Grease by the way ] and everyone says i'm definitely getting jan but mrs.sera [ drama corrdinator from last year ] says i would be a kick ass rizzo. idk. whichever is awesome. as long as i'm on stage i'll be happy. well, i'm talkign to my ex - boyfriend dominick again. all his friends and all my friends tell me he wants to go back out with me but he hasn't mentioned it to me yet so i guess i'm gonna have to wait. but if he makes me wait too long, i'm gonna have to beat it out of him lol. whatever. i'll probably write this week about my auditions and dominick. <3

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well, nothing really has been going on. my hair is still pink, i bought $5 shoes, and im still in school lol. still single, still me, still here. im soo bored right now. yesterday was my cousin's engagement party. He proposed to kathy/cathy - i don't know lol. damn polish cats. i gotta plan my stupid sweet 16 party soon. it's gonna be october 28th or maybe 29th cause that's a friday. no, october 28th. yes. on my birthday. oh well, no one cares anyway. maybe i won't even have a party cause no doubt, half my family won't show up. peas and carrots bitches.

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